From His arms...to mine....

I only hope to be able to put into words what I feel tonight. I was taking a shower, which sometimes, seems like the only time that I have to myself to really ponder on things. And as I was washing my belly, I thought about the little tiny baby inside, and how excited I am to meet him and see what he looks like. And then I was thinking about how cool it is that he is up their with our Heavenly Father right now.....and then all of a sudden I felt really sad. I felt sad for my Heavenly Father that soon He is going to have to say goodbye to His son as he is born into this world. I imagined Him holding Easton, and talking to him and giving him council. I could imagine Him telling Easton about His hopes and dreams that He has for him while on this earth. That He hopes that he never forgets about Him...and that He is always there for him. As a mother myself, I look at my children, and then I look at the world around us and I am, at times, terrified at the fact that they are growing, and will one day be teenagers. And seeing how evil and scary the world is right now....I don't want to imagine what it will be like in 10 years. I know that our Heavenly Father probably feels the same way as He sends His children down to this earth. Will they make it? Will they make right choices? Will Eran and I, as their parents, teach them everything that they need to know so that they will make it? (Which, I know that He know's all things and how things will turn out for us. But to have to watch us go through hard times and make mistakes is probably VERY hard to watch. I know I will have times ahead of me as a mother where I will have to watch my children make mistakes and struggle through life....and that is going to be soooo hard!) I felt soooooo sad that soon He is going to have to let go of His baby boy, and that He is putting His trust in me with His son, and with all of my children!! That is is a HUGE trust and responsibility that is placed upon my shoulders! And after I pondered on those things for a moment....I all of a sudden didn't feel like I needed to be in such a hurry for Easton to get here. I'm in no way saying that i'm not excited to bring him into this world!! But what I mean is that I am going to have him here on the earth for a time, and for eternity.....and so I can certaintly patiently wait a few weeks for the little guy to be born while he spends those precious "last" moments with my Heavenly Father.

And then about 20 minutes later, I was in the kitchen doing dishes, and I was again pondering on everything that I pondered about while in the shower. And I was thinking about how awesome giving birth is!! Giving birth and spending those couple of days in the hospital...especially when it is just the baby and I...is SUCH a spiritual and personal experience for me. To lay there with my baby...and realize....WOW...he just BARELY came from Heavenly Fathers arms, to mine. To be able to hold something that is so new, so perfect, and innocent, and clean and pure. To know that my husband and I created this perfect little life! I absolutely cherish that time that I have in the hospital with each of my babies!! It is a time that I will never be able to get back!! And I so look forward to experiencing that again in the coming weeks! And if you are wondering if I was bawling while I pondered upon these things.....OH YEAH!! Sure I was! I'm pregnant....everything makes me cry. lol.

I have the following picture (by Del Parson, and it is titled "In The Arms Of His Love") hanging up in our bedroom.....and in the same picture frame, I have a picture of all of us when I was pregnant with Ethan, and Eran and the girls are touching my tummy. I LOVE looking at these 2 pictures, and pondering on everything that I just talked about!!!

I am just so grateful to be a mommy (as hard as it is sometimes), and to know that my Heavenly Father trust's Eran and I with His children!! I am so grateful for my Savior...and for his example. And for the truth's that our Church teaches about eternal families and about the Plan of Salvation! I would be lost without those simple, yet powerful truths!!! I love my family SO much.....and I am so grateful that we are eternal!

P.S. Check out this video.....it was done by Mark Mabry...the artist of Reflections of Christ. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this video!!!!